Ever wonder why we constantly trip ourselves up with endless questions? Is lingering self-doubt stepping on your toes? Is perfection clouding your vision? Can’t see the story or the storyline?
Kim, my lovely critique partner has brought me to my senses (along with a little help from my steadfast friend Marissa). Why am I writing in the first place? Fame? Fortune?
Not at all. Success for me would be publication. But join any writer’s circle and you will be bombarded by an endless array of milestones to be reached, curveballs to be hit. First comes the agent, then comes the publisher, then comes success and happiness in droves.
Okay, so maybe it doesn’t always happen that way but its the recipe, its where we start this crazy journey, one that we are totally out of our minds to start of on in the first place.
So my why for today is: Why do I feel this way? My MS and I have been having a tough time of it lately. A bit of a see-saw ride to be honest: YA or not YA, school or no school, urban fantasy or romance or… or..
So you get my dilemma. Why is this MS being so distant? Was it something I said? Maybe my Nano project has driven a wedge between us? Truth be told, I am in doubt Central. I’ve messed with this MS too much, too many edits, too many conflicting opinions, to much everything.
And this is something to watch for: The spice has gone out of this relationship. Time to take a step back, and regroup. Some distance may put things into perspective.
I am not about to throw in the towel though. Just need a bit of time to breath, think, re-energise.
What have I learned?
Know your Story before you write it- if you don’t it will become something totally different and before long you won’t recognise it anymore.
Too many edits can mess with the beauty of the story as well as your head! Know when to put on the edit brakes. Don’t edit the passion and character out of your WIP. Its uniqueness is what will attract your type of reader.
Listen to your heart – for it shall direct the hand that holds the quill! You know what you want to write- so write it, from the heart, and tell your head to butt out until you are satisfied.
And lastly – surround yourself only with those who support you- lose the naysayers or you will soon find yourself believing their vitriol only because it is human nature to think the worst of oneself. Don’t! You are the last man standing in this battle.
Writing is creativity, passion, love. Leave the why’s out of it!